♪♫♪If I die young, bury me satin, lay me down on a bed of roses♫♪♫

Hey Y'all!!!

I have officially came to the conclusion that I really need to start writing a lot more regularly.  I have a lot stuff running through this head of mine..and because I have 361 views!!!!!!!

That is way more then I ever thought would actually take the time to read this, but what do I know, they probably didn't even read it, probably just skimmed and decided it was boring, but 361 people were here on my page!

I know, not really that big of deal, but it kinda is!

Oh, and please don't think to much in the song choice of the day, it's just been stuck in my head for about a week now.  It's a beautiful, but very sad song by The Band Perry, called If I Die Young.  I love it, and can play it on the guitar.  Even though I'm not the greatest singer or guitar player, I like to imagine that I am, when I'm alone, where no one is listening.

Since the last post I have:

Cleaned my car.

Done ALL of my laundry. (Trust me, that was big accomplishment)

Took a rather large bag of clothes to Goodwill.

Completely cleaned my room. (Once again, a very big deal)

Told work that my last day will be June 10th.

& Have talked to my husband every day.

 All in all I have done a lot.  If you can't tell from the above list, I am not a very clean person. No, not at all.  Honestly, I love clean rooms and stuff, but I really don't mind dirty ones either.  Ok, I mind nasty dirty, like rotten food and bugs and mice dirty, but not clutter dirty.  I am perfectly fine with my whole wardrobe sprawled out across my floor.  I still haven't really figured out why that is.  I wish I had just a little bit of clean freak in me, but I don't think I do.  It's going to actually be really hard for me not to go back to what it looked like before...which is sad.  I think my little brother Ryan got all the clean freak genes of the family.  I swear I have only seen that kids room a mess a couple of times.  I think he stole it all..which doesn't really make sense considering I'm the oldest...hhmm...

Anyways.

I am going to try as hard as I possibly can to keep this clean.

I can do it.

I just have to make myself do it.

Eh, lets move on, shall we?

Actually no, because now that I think about it, I'm going to have to be clean for pretty much the rest of my life.  Jordan is in the military.  Oh boy, I really am going to have to figure this out.  This might be rough...

Ok, now lets move on.

I can not even express how excited I am to be done with BK, not because I hate the people or anything, but to just be done with fast food in general.  I have been working in fast food since I was 16, when I quit, it will be 5 years in the fast food industry, and I'm done.  I don't know how people can do it there whole lives.  I really don't.  I don't think it was as bad at McD's as it is at BK, only because of the locations though.  At McD's we were always busy, always something to do, but at BK, it's deadly slow.  In June I will be done.  I only have 5 more weeks.  That's crazy.  5 more weeks and a new chapter of my life starts.  My photography is almost book for June, which is insane.  I just love how it's the summer before I leave and I get all this clientele and I won't be around again to enjoy the benefits of it.

I really hope that when I move out with Jordan, wherever we may be, that I can gain a clientele there, that somehow, I can do this.

I'm always second guessing myself.  I never think I'm good enough, but then I'll look back at a photoshoot or a photo that I edited, and be completely blown away, like "wow, I really did that."  I suppose that will come in time, the confidence part.

Talking about Jordan, I miss him.  We might see each other over Memorial Day weekend, and if we do it will be 2 months since we saw each other.  Yes, talking everyday is helping, a lot, but it's not the same.  I hear people tell me all the time how strong I am to do this, but I don't feel like I'm being strong.  I feel like this is what I am suppose to do, and I might break down at any given moment.  But I don't, eh, I guess since I don't that makes me strong, and I try to live day by day, not taking anything for granted.  Not much longer and we will finally be together again for good.

Well, I should probably sign off for now.

OH, almost forgot.  Keep checking back for the link to my new photography blog.  I'm still working on a layout and such for it, but it will have all of my shoots up there a long with ways to contact me and prices and such, it will be awesome!!

Toodaloo!

Nicole Lynne

This is a photo that I did for my Aunt Dawn today, thought y'all would like to see it :)
you can click on it and see it full size, I'm pretty excited with it! Please don't steal it though :(